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of living late

so today i sat at the airport in ghana and i recalled my very first trip outside the country four years ago to this same place. having been properly educated in private schools all my life, i constantly had people express shock and surprise to realize i schooled all my life right here in lagos...as people expect that the manner with which i speak english is evident of foreign education. if only they knew that i did not have any such luxury and my parents barely could afford to give me private education with great sacrifice. if only i knew that if would take 5 years of working hard, 4 different jobs and 29 years of living to finally step out of nigeria. i remember being ashamed to tell people i had never been out of the country. it almost began to seem that there was someting wrong with me for not having the good fortune to have gone on holidays to america and the uk and around the world. especially surrounded by friends whose parents were doing much better. the uk seemed larger than

of creches

this morning i'm heading out of my house at 6am when i see a fully dressed woman, suit and all, pressing the bell of the creche a few houses away with her really small baby (i hazard say 3 months old) on her shoulder. for some unknown reason my heart went out to her...i've clearly been having some inexplicable emotions lately from the randomest ish...i hope its not all that weed i've been smoking. (thats to stop chinene from saying its mid life crisis). i have suddenly realized after struggling so hard to attain the peaceful life i now live, that i am friendless! i can't remember the last time i saw any of my friends, i have missed all namings, birthdays, weddings and funerals for the last 5 or so years. i have stopped being invited to random things like house-warmings or welcome-home parties, and i frankly don't know much about anyone else. yet, i dont feel anti-social or detached in any way. i feel like i know exactly where my sister is and what she's up to,