simply oroque's view

i try to avoid issues i know little about, you already know that. so i'm going to keep this short and say it as it comes to me whether or not it makes sense. from thursday last week, there have been very high level bombings across the northern part of the country. thursday was thisday newspapers abuja, sunday was christian students at the university in kano, monday was ministry of finance in Taraba. as a result of the increased levels of frustrations within the country, it has become a jungle out there. the DPO of a police division in Enugu State was gunned down by four armed men and now its a matter of where will it hit next all over northern nigeria. So here is how it plays out in my head. you wake up in the morning, toss around for ten minutes after the alarm goes off, remember your 9 am meeting, race to shower and prepare, get in just before 9 and you head in to the board room. you tremble through your slides and then the bilding shakes and theres a loud noise...::silence::

so i was coming on here to talk about something deep...about self-disappointment and how life is not black and white but rather grey. so much has happened to me in the past month, and all of it too personal to share, that it leaves me wondering why i write this blog anyways. the whole idea is to live my life out there, but then halfway through it i realize that my life doesn't belong to me anymore. more of my stories now have my girlfriend, my sister, my handsome new nephew (he looks just like me by the way, hence the "handsome") and other people that i'm not so sure would like their business out in the public domain. so its hard to really write from the heart anymore. but, that does not mean my life has been dull. no it hasn't and here's the summary: after 4 whole months, i finally mustered the courage to go to church last sunday. the pastor came to my house on saturday evening to say hello and ask me back. i obliged. its sadly the same old "flee for